In the bible the Pharisees knew exactly who Jesus was, not only that, they admitted to his spiritual power and miracles. However, when the time came they only chose to send Him to Caiaphas because they feared what would happen to them and their Temples if more people believed in Jesus.
"If we let him go on like, everyone will believe in him, and then the Romans will come and take away both our temple and our nation" John 11:47-48 (NIV)
When I read this in John 11:47-48 (NIV) it was like a lightbulb had been turned on. For majority of my life I believed what people said and did was a reflection of me.
For every one person that could see the pureness in me or my actions there was always more who immediately went against me or tried to attack me.
I dealt with this for so long that I immediately began to think that there was something wrong with me. I began to shrink to fit in and not make too many waves.
It wasn’t until I started to take my healing journey serious that God began to reveal a lot of things to me. Mostly what areas were traumatized and the lies that were rooted in me that needed to be dug up and, replaced with His word.
It wasn’t until I began to find my identity in Christ alone that I was able to see clearly how the enemy was working in my life to destroy my sense of identity but also, the people and tactics that he was using.
When I read how Jesus was rejected and betrayed by the same people who witnessed His miracles.
It blew my mind. Not because I didn’t know that Jesus was rejected and betrayed but, because I never knew that the people who betrayed Jesus witnessed His goodness but still made the conscious decision to proceed with plotting to take Jesus’ life to save themselves from ruin.
When this revelation hit my spirit, my spirit leaped. I sat upright and said out loud: IT’S NOT ME! This behavior has been going on for a centuries.
There is a culture that says to kill, steal, and destroy whatever does not go with the flow of this world. Especially if what is good in you will expose what’s bad in them.
There are people who know exactly who you are, the goodness in you, and what greatness you’re capable of but, will still throw dirt on your name and send you to the wolves to be killed… just to save themselves.
Why? (Start from the beginning)